Lately, I’ve really been struggling. I’m stuck between two paths in life. One is sensible, smart. I will graduate with a business degree from a great program in less than two years. I will be debt free and set to go. I would get a steady job and be on with my life. The second is risky, unsure, and honestly a bit terrifying. I want to pack my bags, get in my car, and drive. I want to meet people and see things. I want to write a book to share my stories and pictures with people. I want to truly understand this beautiful country and one day, this world in a more clear light. And I desperately want to understand and help people. Robert Frost would suggest that I take the second. Practicality would push for the first. I’m stuck.
It seems that there are so many people out there in my position just stuck between two hard places. Maybe the situation is completely different than mine. It probably is. I’ve watched two TED talks recently that spoke to me. (Yes I love inspirational speakers.) If you are confused, wandering, or aimless, I would urge you to check these videos out.
These were both phenomenal, but this next one hit home. If you are young, or love someone who is young and lost, this one is great.
Recently, a fellow blogger said to me, “Remember that you are dead for a long time. This life is not a rehearsal!” That stuck with me, and it really ties in with Sarah Kay’s final words in the first video. We may not get another chance.
I don’t know where I will end up. Too often it gives me anxiety thinking about it. Right now, I’m leaning for the second path. I’m not sure how I could afford it or even achieve it, but how can I truly be content knowing that I let such an important dream slip away? Especially when the endless possibilities could allow me to help people. I will always have the pretty degree, so why not learn more about the world around me before I dive into the businesses that so heavily impact the people and places I crave to learn more about.